Sorry i abandoned my DA for a long time... i just dont have any passion to draw these months with all these problems. Guess it is time when my circle of life is in the bottom. I wrote this journal for someone, wishing he would come home...
My brother, I call him Panda cos he looks a lot like kungfu Panda, ran away from home. It's been 5 days now...he didnt came home from campus and turned off his cellphone. Me, my mum and dad have been restless, desperately looking for him. Panda left without message nor bringing any stuffs at all, which makes us even worrier. My dad almost sleepless these days, patrolling all game centers in the town and places Panda used to come. Mum just went crazy, can't stop her tears and insists on cooking Panda's favourite meals, expecting him to come home. Meanwhile I had my exam (Graaaaah!!!! can't concentrate at aaaaalll!!!) and since I'm the only one Panda can talk with, I've been desperately remembering any clue about Panda's whereabouts; places or friends, and none of them proved useful.

Panda is sooo introvert, he has been quarrelling with mum and dad for years. I know he also hardly socialize on his campus... Problems with parents, loneliness, problems in study... He failed in his study, although I know he's a genius. Panda has been keeping all these deep inside him without anyone knowing. Panda used to talk a lot with me, but he just keep these depressions inside. I failed as his only friend... I don't understand his struggles and always call him an emo (people who keeps grumbling how sad they are and cant go forward) ... Now suddenly he's gone...

Panda, if u read this journal, i want to say I'M SOOO SOORRRYY!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COME HOME!!! None of us will be mad, in fact we want to apologize to you. About ur failure in study, it doesnt matter anymore!!! Dad said "ga kuliah ga pateken!!!!" It's ok if u want to be a novelist like ur hobby, the only thing important is, we want u to come home. Dad, ur biggest enemy, never slept for days to find u. In my prays I cried that u're okay n u'll come home soon. Please, Panda, no matter how ruined this family is, don't break it apart. I know home is unsweet, but without u its even more bitter. I'll try to be ur bestfriend, so gimme second chance please.

come back home, my dearest brother, Panda... I love u n I'll keep waiting for u...